Spuffy Ficlet: Before

[botias]

Rating: Sexy
Timeline: In my little post-Chosen Spuffy fantasyland
A/N: I wanted to post some Spuffy for you all, and I found this on my desktop. Hope you like.

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Without saying anything, Buffy held up one of the warm cookies. He padded forward on bare feet, skirting the sliver of afternoon sunlight on the tile. Grabbing her wrist, he took a bite. He was still half-asleep, and somehow he reminded her of before when he was this way. It was as if his body awakened a little ahead of his soul.

Buffy watched Spike watch her while he ate, her breath growing shorter as the white teeth came closer and closer to her fingertips.

Was it wrong that she kind of liked it, these glimpses of the way he used to be—to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy, ruled by only a few basic imperatives of which she was the first.

A deft brush of lips and tongue and the last bit of cookie was taken from her fingers. Buffy pulled in a breath at the sharp twist of pleasure in her lower belly. Spike’s pupils dilated at the sound, and she wondered if he was remembering the handful of afternoons when she’d woken to his lips on her body, tasting and biting. His lovemaking then was sleek and silent and intense. The way he looked at her pinned her to the bed as much as his hands on her wrists and the thickness of him inside her. He looked into her then, completely unselfconscious, stripping her bare.

Before, this sensation of nakedness had been one more adrenaline kick, one more punishment. Now it gave her a tentative joy.

It still made her feel exquisitely sensitive, almost raw, her world narrowed to the sinuous rub of his belly and hips, the nudge of his pubic bone, the deep pleasure of him inside her. It was enough the same that afterward she always felt guilty as if she’d been with a secret lover. For the rest of the day he would catch her staring at him and then laugh at her blushes.

The movement of his throat caught her eye as he swallowed the last bite. She looked up just in time to see his mouth close over her fingers.

Comments

[thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com]

Wow. You amaze me with the tactileness of your writing. Not to mention the lovely insights - yes, she would feel that way, wouldn't she, attracted and then guilty about feeling the attraction.

And the warm cookie is a lovely bonus. Yum.

[mere-ubu.livejournal.com]

*le sigh* That was delicious. So much packed into so few words. I would love to see more of this Spike and Buffy.

Was it wrong that she kind of liked it, these glimpses of the way he used to be—to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy; ruled by only a few basic imperatives, of which she was the first.

I really like the notion that Buffy is finally able to have and accept "both" Spikes (even if it makes her blush). And you do lovely things here with the cookie analogy.

Thanks for this.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

Honestly, the cookie's in there because chocolate-chip oatmeal cookies are a staple for me, but the analogy thing works too. :D

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks very much. :D

Warm cookies are the best. I nuke my day-old cookies for a few seconds so they are at least warm again.

[missus-grace.livejournal.com]

I love it when Buffy grows up.

[adriana-is.livejournal.com]

**sigh** cookies..

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

Very sensual. And I guess Buffy's cookies are finally baked now and Spike's getting to nibble.

[mere-ubu.livejournal.com]

WORD. Chocolate-chip oatmeal cookies are teh yummeh.

[louise39.livejournal.com]

For the rest of the day he would catch her staring at him, and then laugh at her blushes.
No words are necessary between them.

Your words create a world of emotion in the eating of a warm cookie.

[gillo]

Mmm, cookies. Her cookie dough is definitely baked here! Lovely vignette.

[botias.livejournal.com]

As long as everybody is happy. :)

[botias.livejournal.com]

I love warm cookies...

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. :) They have so much between them.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :D They are yummy.

[botias.livejournal.com]

They are, cooked and uncooked IMHO.

[prophecygirrl.livejournal.com]

Was it wrong that she kind of liked it, these glimpses of the way he used to be—to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy; ruled by only a few basic imperatives, of which she was the first.

Honey if that is wrong, I don't want to be right. And, I don't think Buffy really does either. It's nice to see her finally getting that, allowing herself to accept all of the pleasures love has to offer, and the singlar pleasures of spike in particular.

I could taste thoese cookies, botias. And it all merged into a sensous haze from there. Very well done.


Yum!

[botias.livejournal.com]

Honey if that is wrong, I don't want to be right.

\o/\o/\o/

That is my new Spuffy motto. :D Thank you for that, and for your fb.

[herself_nyc]

Amazing. What a beautiful idea, what beautiful observations.

Phrase that takes my breath away

[selinde2.livejournal.com]

"to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy; ruled by only a few basic imperatives, of which she was the first." Shiver.
"Before, this sensation of nakedness had been one more adrenaline kick, one more punishment. Now it gave her a tentative joy." This is for true.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. :)

Re: Phrase that takes my breath away

[botias.livejournal.com]

:-* Thanks for giving those lines some love.

[empresspatti.livejournal.com]

Just about every word took my breath away. I love that she loves the man he is now - but still thrills to what he was before.

Was it wrong that she kind of liked it, these glimpses of the way he used to be—to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy; ruled by only a few basic imperatives, of which she was the first.

**I swear, you just wrote my every fantasy about Spike...

[brunettepet.livejournal.com]

I love the slinky aside of Spike waking up with a bit of the evil Buffy still misses. This captures a wonderful visceral portrait of Buffy and her predator.

[morgantree.livejournal.com]

Botias, couldn't you leave even one of my kinks...unkinked? Your stories are just so exactly warm-oatmeal-chocolate-chip-cookie porn. Sprinkle in a little spanking and... well, that's the melty part.

Have to tell you, there's this part of Persephone that has been replaying nonstop in the back of my brain ever since I read it. It's a couple of chapters ago, during that luscious sex-in-the-dark scene, when Spike is well and whole again from drinking slayer blood:

He shifted so that he was fully on top of her, making himself comfortable between her legs. There was no hesitation in his movements now, only lazy strength.

It's like Spike is whispering this in my ear all the time. And okay, not really complaining here, because it certainly enlivens the silly meetings I have to sit through, and the long commute, and the dish-washing, and who wouldn't want that voice in their ear, anyway, right?

But it can very, very distracting when actually attempting to have a focused conversation.

And now the cookie thing. Oy.

[randi2204]

With just a few words, you paint a spectacular image - sleepy Spike taking what Buffy's offering. Mmmm.

Was it wrong that she kind of liked it, these glimpses of the way he used to be—to stand in the intense focus of a creature without shame or mercy; ruled by only a few basic imperatives, of which she was the first.

Gah. So much love for that. So lovely that she can recognize it, even if it does give her a little bit of guilt. (I don't think Buffy will ever be able to get over the guilt at feeling any kind of pleasure, no matter who or what gives it to her.)

The movement of his throat caught her eye as he swallowed the last bite.

Nnnnnhh. Throat-kink. *fans self* A beautifully insightful little piece. Thanks for sharing!

[moscow-watcher.livejournal.com]

Mmmm... pure delight! :)

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. That's really what I love about Spike. Sure he's pretty and cool, but it's the way he loves Buffy that made me fall so hard.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Buffy and her predator

*dreamy sigh*

[botias.livejournal.com]

Botias, couldn't you leave even one of my kinks...unkinked?

Oh? Did I do that? Ooops. >:D

That whole 'making himself comfortable between her legs' thing... kinda got your attention did it?

Perhaps if, when you are imagining him eating the cookie (don't forget his firm grip on her little wrist), you were also to imagine him naked then it would help you be less flustered by it. Works for public speaking right?

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for your fb. Yes, poor Buffy. It doesn't help when it's a vampire I'm sure. Goes right to the heart of her issues.

Oooh, yes, throat kink. :D I do love his pretty white throat.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Glad you enjoyed.

[beanbeans.livejournal.com]

What woman wouldn't want to be the object of his intense attention? If he knows anything, Spike certainly knows how to make a woman feel special.

I love the description of his lovemaking as "sleek"; that brings to mind all sorts of delicious tactile images of his body and his movements. Mmm.

Hee, you had me at pinned. :P

What a pleasure, to see her seeing what once was a source of shame, and is now a source of joy. Wonderful ficlet, dear B. ♥

[botias.livejournal.com]

Hee, you had me at pinned. :P

Me too. O.O

Thanks so much, Beans. :-*

[chloris.livejournal.com]

That was lovely! Very intense!

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :D

[treadingthedark.livejournal.com]

Delicious. Intense. Got a little adrenalin rush myself there!
Thanks

[botias.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah! Thanks for letting me know. :)

[njzynj.livejournal.com]

Not cookie dough any more.

[botias.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked. :)

[wilcorules.livejournal.com]

"It was as if his body awakened a little ahead of his soul."

Love that line!

[botias.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :)

[margueritedaisy.livejournal.com]

"It's the way he loves Buffy that made me fall so hard"--this statement sums up my feelings exactly. Yes, Spike is definitely cool with his bleached hair, cheekbones and iconic coat--but it's his love for Buffy (and for me, only Buffy--it's hard for me to see him with other characters) that has fueled my intense obsession with Spuffy fanfiction. I just wish I had discovered BtVS several years ago but at least stories like yours are still available for latecomers like me.

[botias.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for the feedback. It always makes my day. That's my kink too, it's not enough for a character to be a bad boy. For me to fangirl him, he has to be madly in love with a good woman. ;)