What Would YOU Choose?

I think the Buffy fandom is amazing. Some of the fanworks and fanon have been so powerful that they have forever altered the way I view the show. I was thinking, what if I had to choose? If I could only have one or the other from this day forward, what would I pick? I think it says something that I would have to think about it. Joss, a man who hides his deep insecurities well, says he gives the fans what they need, not what they want. Actually, he trots out a bit of what they want too. But the fandom gives me what I want, what I need, what could never appear on network television, what makes me want to bleach my eyeballs and everything in between.