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[botias]

My job is kind of scary. They haven't really had time to train me to do anything, so I've been stuffing envelopes and applying labels most of the time. It's kind of depressing. Even when I am trained, this is definitely the entry level position. Makes me feel like I didn't accomplish anything jobwise. It doesn't help that I want to lay down and go to sleep all the time.

I think most folks think that the changes that take place in a woman's body when she's pregnant are kind of like a bird preparing a nest to cradle its offspring, but a closer analogy from nature might be tarantulas mating. The fetus mucks up your system up towards its own ends as far as it can without getting into dimishing returns, and our bodies have not evolved to combat its activities (too much) for obvious reasons. That's why sub-par fetuses are often miscarried. It's not because the body senses something abnormal, but because the fetus is not adequately up to the task of deceiving and impairing its mother's immune system and so there is a normal response to foreign tissue. It's a tricky little critter. It renders you mildly diabetic, for example, so that there is plenty of fuel floating around in your bloodstream for it to skim.

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[elynne.livejournal.com]

... and see, that's exactly why I don't want to get pregnant ever. I know it's supposed to be this wonderful experience and all, but the thought of a little thing living inside me, living on me, and growing, is just... it hits all my squick buttons at once. Add to that the whole "giving birth" concept - hours and hours of agony, at the end of which I'd be presented with a little pink noisy wriggling thing that I will either go completely insane over or find as distasteful as I currently find other people's infants... gee, uh, no.

Yah, I know, it's just one of those Circle of Life things. Still... ick. I'm still happy for you and stuff, but - well, YKIOK. ;)

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[botias.livejournal.com]

Then, I guess I shouldn't talk about how you can feel the limbs moving around under your skin, or how they smell like those fetal pigs from biology class right after they're born }:D I'm not bugged by it at all. I'm already sharing this space with colonies of bacteria that vote a lot more shares at the homeowners' association meetings than I do, and they're not nearly as cute. Nature pretty much never validates human notions of what's spiffy anyway, and what few intersections exist are coincidental. I mean, my cats enjoy tormenting small animals to death, and would do the same to me if our relative sizes allowed it, but this is necessarily unrelated to my enjoyment of them.

Yah know, you mention your aversion to childbearing an awful lot. Does your mom want grandkids or something? It really is perfectly happy, fine, normal and OK not to want kids. It's not really one of those good/bad things.

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[botias.livejournal.com]

p.s. Connor likes your userpic :)