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[botias]

Reading Material:	Ecology of the Planted Aquarium (3rd time)
	Exercising Through Your Pregnancy (??? time)
	+ asst. romance novels and children's books

Bleh, I feel much better. In fact I'm declaring myself officially well. I'm not particularly pleased with Alan at the moment. Same old, same old. At least he's making money. During periods like this I fantasize about striking out on my own after the kids are grown. Terribly independent and stuff, but no apartment and no cat. Probably not even a fish tank. Beach cabin maybe? Housesitting for millionaires? I think I would miss Alan though. Perhaps we could date. So, I guess what I'm essentially fantasizing about is our pre-kid(s) relationship with a view.

Aquarium plants are definitely hanging in there. Which is neat. I've been fussing with the tank a bit most days these days, heartened by the success. I find I enjoy skimming algal slime off the top of the tank. Everybody's got to have a hobby right?

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[elynne.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I get very cranky with Myles, but I'd never, ever trade him in. On the other hand, I had lots of experiences with other people - so I know, without any doubt, how good he is for me, even when he aggravates the living crap out of me. ;) Of course, children put all kinds of new and exciting stresses on relationships...

[botias.livejournal.com]

Nah, I'd never trade Alan in either, or Connor for that matter. They're both very special. That's why it's a fantasy. What it comes down to is, when I'm feeling hurt about not getting as much help or attention from him as I would like, I fantasize about needing much less of either. *shrug* I ain't no dummy.

I remember when I was pregnant with Connor there was another girl in my office that was about as pregnant as I was now. I remember she came over to my cube where I had a Hallmark ornament of Cinderella's coach. Someone sympathetically asked her if she didn't wish she could go to the ball, and she said 'Sure' if she could go by herself, no handsome prince, etc. This has stuck in my head for some reason.